Remember my last posts about my depression sa ex ko? Well I am totally confused. I am quite okay now but things come to my mind and all of those things really did happen..
The day we had the break up, I kept on asking him why, what and where did I went wrong. That is through messaging on facebook. We had a good conversation naman everytime we talk about that.. Well for me kasi asking is better than keeping every single thing to myself. I don't want to be paranoid. As time goes by, we were having a conversation about our ruined relationship then he suddenly deleted me on his list tapos hindi pa nakuntento, nilagay niya ako sa block list. I asked my sister if I could use her account to send him a message saying my thanks for deleting me.. Rude kasi e. He could have just told me that he doesn't want me messaging him up or talking about those things. Hindi naman ako nangungulit. I am just replying to all of his answers. So there it goes, I sent the message then he answered "Nakakainis na kasi". Hindi nalang kasi niya ako sinabihan na he doesn't want those kinds of topic. Hindi na ako sumagot. Then I opened my facebook account again, tinanggal niya pagklakablock ko s list niya pero deleted parin ako.. So okay lang. I was just surprised sa ginawa niya. Parang masyadong immature kasi e. Anyway, one time naisipan ko na mag browse ng profile. I saw his profile and I saw someone posted on his wall and addressing him as "bebe". I was stunned. I immediately asked him who that person was. He said tropa daw niya yun and it was a HE!!! Stupid me, I didn't opened "his"page before asking. Pero oo nga she was a HE. Hindi lang halata kasi he really looked as if he was a real girl. So ayun. After so many weeks, our kabarkda asked him who was that person. My ex answered them the same then he brought up the idea that I was jealous with that person.. Big deal ba?? FYI, I was about to get jealous but he told me na bakla yun. And the time that our friends asked him that question, wala na sakin yun. Ni hindi ko na nga inaalala e. Okay lang siya?? Parang ang feeling naman niya...
The second thing I hated about him is that he makes fun or jokes about our break up. Kasi kapag nagkakaasaran or nagkakakulitan kami, he always add the line "parang hindi mo naman ako minahal non" or "sus, mahal mo naman ako e". Then a friend asked me, what if one of my ex come and take me back, will I accept daw ba? Sabi ako that depends on the reason why we broke up. Sumabat siya. Sabi niya "ako ba pag bumalik sayo may pag-asa ba?". I didn't answer kasi I know he was just making fun. Parang joke time lang. Loko-loko kasi yun. Pero deep down inside me, ouch ang pakiramdam ha.. I am still at the process of moving on nung mga oras na yun.
Now guys, what do you think???
. I thought that I'll be happy with him that he will never hurt me like cheaters do... Mali pala ako.. Though he told me na wala siya iba at nasa kanya ang problema pro who knows diba.. I don't wanna be paranoid pero that's a big probability and I don't want to runaway from reality.... Sakit sobra... 
Sana pwede ko hlingin sa taas na magkabalikan kami and that time sana maayos na 