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whitecrow

Somethings bothering me.... I can't sleep because of bein' bothered of something I am not sure of... I really feel that something's wrong.. I just don't know what.. But I know na may mangyayari na hindi maganda.... ganito na kasi ako dati pa.. This is a complete torture!!! huhuhu... Hindi ko alam kung ano, kanino,pano, saan chaka kailan... kung meron man mangyayari, wala ako magagawa khit gusto ko tumulong... maraming beses n 'to nangyari kaya hindi ako pwede magkamali....

Weird noh.... I consider myself as a freak because of that.. but some people say na it is a gift.. but then.. if it is so.. bakit wala ako nagagawa for that? bakit hanggang pakiramdam nalang ako?? kaya for me this is one big curse na hindi ko alam kung sinong Poncio Pilato nagbigay sakin nito.. I am so sick and tired of this... Can't get a grip anymore.. Don't know what to do or even where to go at times like this... I've been carrying this whole thing up for about a month.. Hindi ko nalang sinasabi kasi alam ko naman na wala din kwenta kasi wala akong magawa.. I just brought this up and share this kasi hindi ko n talaga kaya...

Guys help me out here.. please!! sasabog n utak ko!!!

whitecrow

You came to me one day
An angel, I can only see
My hand you held
In spirit you are with me

You are "My Special Angel"
How beautiful the world can be
In the Heavens, on the earth
You opened up your hand for me
A flower did you hold
A message of love
Forever told

I want to fly with you
You made my life new
A butterfly, I became
A special angel, has helped me change

You are My Special Angel
So wonderful and rare
I will always be with you
In the sky and in the air

You will always be special
In my heart you will stay
You help pick me up
And send a smile to me
Along the way

When I was still in love with god,

I never expected such a farewell would come.

If I had known I could never feel your touch again,

I would've hoped to be embraced just one last time.

It's long long good-bye. . . . . . . .

Goodbye, goodbye, so many times,

I repeated the word to myself,

Waving my hands. It's only graceful, right?

Now, I long to be stronger.

I met you, the stars sparkled, and I was born.

I love you, therefore I am.

What good is waiting for a hopeless miracle?

Through my tear-vision filled, the planet's twinkle is gone...

I can't ever forget your warmth,

Your kindness, and your all-encompassing hands.

It's long long good-bye.

Goodbye, goodbye, my beloved.

I came this far because you were here.

I wasn't alone, was I?

Now, I long for answers.

Catch a falling star that looks ablazed and light a fire,

I still want to love, and I still want to be loved.

What good is a lone freezing body to this world?

I long for you to finally drop your act...

What's wrong? Why can't I stop my tears from overflowing?

I met you, the stars sparkled, and I was born.

I love you, therefore I am.

What good is waiting for a hopeless miracle?

Through my tear-vision filled, the planet's twinkle is gone...

If we are reincarnated and can meet again some day,

Please find me and hold me tight,

And make sure you don't let go again.

I wish the planet would whisper to me that I am not alone...

whitecrow

The night has a thousand eyes,
    And the day but one;
Yet the light of the bright world dies
    With the dying sun.

The mind has a thousand eyes,
    And the heart but one;
Yet the light of a whole life dies
    When love is done.

whitecrow

As I sit here and I wonder why
Somewhere, some way we all must die

Do we believe we can miss the boat
Somehow redirect its path without cutting our throat

Can we fly south or take a sabbatical to France
Can we miss life's most infamous dance

No matter how far you travel or where you go
Death will be there to answer the door

There is no option when it comes to death
No matter how healthy or how much wealth

There is no road that will lead you astray
No miraculous prayer that will save the day

Death has been promised to all kind
Nothing lives forever that is the design

Now life after death that's the true story
The only way there is in Gods' Glory!

Now you must pay attention if you have the need to live on
There are some basic instructions that will not steer you wrong

Try picking this up when you see the next paper or hardback
Some wonderful instructions to help keep your life on track

A book that shares the covenant that can fulfill your every need
Just try it, read it, embed it in your life and you will see

Open it wide and ride its pages
Because the death you seek holds no wages

The wages of sin carry eternal death
But,The Word of God has eternal wealth

God has promised that death for believers is only a sleep
Don't you want to rise again when the Shepherd calls his sheep

So, Be faithful and true, and know life gets better not worse
Because in his word he promised the dead in Christ shall rise first!

whitecrow

Pain... Tension... Fatigue...
Depression...
Anger, Aggression, Frustration.
All these unwanted sensations -
Burning, hurting, tearing.
My heart alone, cold and fearing.
Why won't you let me sleep, let me rest,
Let me forget
To eradicate, eliminate, destroy all my regrets?
These memories inside, swirling, twirling,
unwilling to reside in the corner of my mind.
Repeating, resisting, insisting -
Refusing to be denied its recognition
Of its position in my
Frustration, Confusion, Delusion.
Ah, to close my eyes and let time fly by,
Because there's so much to gain
By forgetting these dreams driving me insane.
Unfocused, unclear, out of control,
My world spinning, spinning, spinning,
My sanity flying through the door.
My reason, my logic, oh, it's tragic,
Like fine sands running through my hands,
I'm losing my mind.